Ever have one of those days when one little thing can turn it all around? A phone call, a conversation, realizing you forgot to do something. Well today turned into one of those days for me, without any warning. I got to babysit Daisy today, for the first time in two weeks, I got boxes to begin packing my apartment, even heard from two potential jobs. Everything was going well. Until the girl who was supposed to sub-let my apartment let me know that she would be unable to at this point. So I am back at square one with my apartment for the second time. And when I let my parents know, my dad flipped out at me for taking my name off the sub-leasing list last week and made me cry. And when I called to talk to my boyfriend he didn't pick up the phone the first time and after talking to me for less than 10min hung up to call his best friend. So I guess he didn't get that I was upset and would have liked to talk to him longer. Oh well. He claims that he will call me back, but I will be surprised if I get more than a 30sec goodnight call.
So there is it, today is one of those days when I just feel down and would rather run away from it all and start over somewhere. I don't get the point of going on the way things are and maybe if I could go somewhere where no one knew me it would be better. A nice, small town on the coast of Georgia that you can only get to from a two lane road. What do you think? Sound good? Should I do it? Just leave it all behind and go off to a little town in the middle of nowhere?
Monday, November 29, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
aggravations
So this post is about things that aggravate me. Like how you can empty the trash only for it to be full a day later. Seriously, why does it fill up so fast? And the annoying sound my tv makes when it's off, which causes me to leave it on more than I should. But those are little things compared to others.
Like when a friend won't call you back. You call and leave a message, follow it up with a text a few days later, maybe a facebook message a few days after that. But you get nothing in response. Now this friend has always done this and it's one of those things that you either don't focus on or it will ruin your friendship. Usually it doesn't bother, I know it's just one of her quirks and it's nothing personal against me. She does this to other people and they too mention it occasionally. But there are times when it does suck. The weekend I got engaged I called her 10 times before leaving her a message telling her what happened. Now that was not how I wanted to tell my maid of honor. But there are times when she does come through, like the weekend after I ended my engagement and she let me come up and visit her, no questions asked. She and I are in a constant cycle of not talking, and then speaking everyday. It has been like that since we went to college. Now I'm trying to find out if she would want to share an apartment with me, and I can't get an answer. I am not overwhelming her with calls and texts and the like, but I would like to talk to my best friend.
*as a disclaimer I am NOT trashing her in any way. I love this girl like a sister, but she does have annoying habits just like I'm sure I do as well
Like when a friend won't call you back. You call and leave a message, follow it up with a text a few days later, maybe a facebook message a few days after that. But you get nothing in response. Now this friend has always done this and it's one of those things that you either don't focus on or it will ruin your friendship. Usually it doesn't bother, I know it's just one of her quirks and it's nothing personal against me. She does this to other people and they too mention it occasionally. But there are times when it does suck. The weekend I got engaged I called her 10 times before leaving her a message telling her what happened. Now that was not how I wanted to tell my maid of honor. But there are times when she does come through, like the weekend after I ended my engagement and she let me come up and visit her, no questions asked. She and I are in a constant cycle of not talking, and then speaking everyday. It has been like that since we went to college. Now I'm trying to find out if she would want to share an apartment with me, and I can't get an answer. I am not overwhelming her with calls and texts and the like, but I would like to talk to my best friend.
*as a disclaimer I am NOT trashing her in any way. I love this girl like a sister, but she does have annoying habits just like I'm sure I do as well
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
ramblings
Sadly I have come to realize something. I have lost one of my best friends. She and I have not spoken in three weeks and I do not see that changing any time soon. She and I shared an apartment for two years, and would talk almost daily and now we don't talk at all. She has no idea that I have been sick, or that I have found someone to sublet my apartment or that I have really begun to look at places to live in Mount Pleasant. All the signs were there that she and I would eventually grow apart, but I didn't want to acknowledge it. All we really had in common was the fact that we shared an apartment. We do not have any other friends in common, we do not take the same classes, and there is very little chance that we will ever live near each other again. It saddens me that I no longer have that friendship, but I became the only one making an effort to keep it alive. So I stopped and now there is very little there to keep us as friends.
I really noticed it back in august when school started again. Her birthday was the week before school started and I did everything I could to make it a good day for her. I spent $160 on pedicures for her and I, bought her drinks the night before when we went out, and went out to dinner with her and few other people. In total I spent over $200 on her birthday. I got a $20 hair straightener for my birthday, and even then it was three weeks late and I had to badger her for it. That was the last time she and I spoke at all. I know that I was more stand-offish to her than I had ever been before and that was because I knew that she was only getting me a gift because she felt obligated to. That is not a good feeling, to know that someone thinks they are obligated to be your friend or get you something.
Which is why I am officially calling this friendship dead, we are now people who used to be close. We might speak every now and then, to share good news, but probably nothing more than that. And eventually we will stop doing even that. Now I will say that it is not too late to revive this friendship. All it would take is a simple phone call or visit from her, some form of effort on her part now that I am done making all the effort. But I do not expect it, and I have come to accept that my closest friends are John, Ricky, Anna-Weston, Aly people who I have known for a while or love more than life itself. And I am ok with that, I know that my friendships with them have lasted for years and that I will not lose them. Now my dilemma is if I want to post the link to this blog on my facebook page. I'm not sure if I want my friends to see this, but I really don't mind people I have never met reading this. Strange how that works, isn't it?
I really noticed it back in august when school started again. Her birthday was the week before school started and I did everything I could to make it a good day for her. I spent $160 on pedicures for her and I, bought her drinks the night before when we went out, and went out to dinner with her and few other people. In total I spent over $200 on her birthday. I got a $20 hair straightener for my birthday, and even then it was three weeks late and I had to badger her for it. That was the last time she and I spoke at all. I know that I was more stand-offish to her than I had ever been before and that was because I knew that she was only getting me a gift because she felt obligated to. That is not a good feeling, to know that someone thinks they are obligated to be your friend or get you something.
Which is why I am officially calling this friendship dead, we are now people who used to be close. We might speak every now and then, to share good news, but probably nothing more than that. And eventually we will stop doing even that. Now I will say that it is not too late to revive this friendship. All it would take is a simple phone call or visit from her, some form of effort on her part now that I am done making all the effort. But I do not expect it, and I have come to accept that my closest friends are John, Ricky, Anna-Weston, Aly people who I have known for a while or love more than life itself. And I am ok with that, I know that my friendships with them have lasted for years and that I will not lose them. Now my dilemma is if I want to post the link to this blog on my facebook page. I'm not sure if I want my friends to see this, but I really don't mind people I have never met reading this. Strange how that works, isn't it?
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Things I thought I would never do
Tonight I realized that I am doing things in my life I never thought I would. I am currently watching a pro-football game, something that I have never done voluntarily before. The reason I'm watching this game is because my boyfriend (John) is a true Colts fan. He is in Mt Pleasant and I'm watching the game by myself! Ask my parents if I would ever watch a pro game on my own and they probably would have laughed at you for even suggesting it. I used to claim that I hated pro football and would never watch a game unless I was forced to.
Well I've been told to never say never because one day you will probably do what you said you would never do. I also used to think that I would never fly alone. I figured I would also be traveling with someone else, and thus never travel alone. Well this week marks two years of flying by myself to meetings. All of this is to really say that things are changing in my life and that I'm ok with it.
Well I've been told to never say never because one day you will probably do what you said you would never do. I also used to think that I would never fly alone. I figured I would also be traveling with someone else, and thus never travel alone. Well this week marks two years of flying by myself to meetings. All of this is to really say that things are changing in my life and that I'm ok with it.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Travel
So.... here begins a month of flying to Nashville for meetings. I am sitting in the airport in Charlotte waiting for my flight that doesn't leave for another hour. And I get to do this two more time this month. I will be back here next Wednesday, and then the following Tuesday. Oh joy.
One day I would like to go to Nashville and see Music Row, the Grand Ole Opery, go out to small little bars and hear the local talent. Simply put, I want to see Nashville. I have been many times in the past two years, but each time I was in meetings the whole time and thus I have seen more of the Sharedon at the Opery and the GCFA headquarters than anything else. In fact I could probably make my way around said hotel without any assistance, but they do have comfy beds.
I had the chance to see Nashville many moons ago when I was on a trip across this great country with my parents. But I was informed that we did not have time to stop and look around the home of country music, but not to worry we were going to stop in Memphis to see Elvis. Ugh! I was so frustrated, but I was told that I would make it back one day. When I was appointed to GCFA and found out that I would be going to Nashville many times over the next four years, my dad pointed out that I would now get to go to Nashville. Well he was technically right, but I have yet to see any of it.
All of this is to say that I'm tired of traveling to a city I never see that is filled with wonderful treasures. So maybe one day I will get to go to Nashville and see what that city is all about.
One day I would like to go to Nashville and see Music Row, the Grand Ole Opery, go out to small little bars and hear the local talent. Simply put, I want to see Nashville. I have been many times in the past two years, but each time I was in meetings the whole time and thus I have seen more of the Sharedon at the Opery and the GCFA headquarters than anything else. In fact I could probably make my way around said hotel without any assistance, but they do have comfy beds.
I had the chance to see Nashville many moons ago when I was on a trip across this great country with my parents. But I was informed that we did not have time to stop and look around the home of country music, but not to worry we were going to stop in Memphis to see Elvis. Ugh! I was so frustrated, but I was told that I would make it back one day. When I was appointed to GCFA and found out that I would be going to Nashville many times over the next four years, my dad pointed out that I would now get to go to Nashville. Well he was technically right, but I have yet to see any of it.
All of this is to say that I'm tired of traveling to a city I never see that is filled with wonderful treasures. So maybe one day I will get to go to Nashville and see what that city is all about.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Thing's I'm loving
Just a short post about things I'm loving today...
1) cooler weather, so I can bust out my awesome sweaters!
2) the start of the holiday season, Halloween is over, Thanksgiving is on the way and I'm so ready to decorate a tree!
3) being so close to finishing my undergrad degree
4) spending time with great friends over the weekend celebrating Halloween
5) looking forward to some great weekends coming up!
It is really not taking much to get me in a good mood these days, just ask my boyfriend. I'm overly perky right now and it may be freaking him out just a bit. haha. Oh and one more thing I'm loving today, my boyfriend (John) dressed up as the little kid from the movie UP. He was adorable, in his boyscout uniform with the balloons tied to his backpack! I will post a pic as soon as I get one (I wasn't taking pics this past weekend).
1) cooler weather, so I can bust out my awesome sweaters!
2) the start of the holiday season, Halloween is over, Thanksgiving is on the way and I'm so ready to decorate a tree!
3) being so close to finishing my undergrad degree
4) spending time with great friends over the weekend celebrating Halloween
5) looking forward to some great weekends coming up!
It is really not taking much to get me in a good mood these days, just ask my boyfriend. I'm overly perky right now and it may be freaking him out just a bit. haha. Oh and one more thing I'm loving today, my boyfriend (John) dressed up as the little kid from the movie UP. He was adorable, in his boyscout uniform with the balloons tied to his backpack! I will post a pic as soon as I get one (I wasn't taking pics this past weekend).
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